Self-Doubt

We all have our moments of self-doubt, I know I’ve had plenty. We think we’re not good enough, that we’re not doing anything worthwhile, and with self-doubt comes a feeling of loneliness and separation. You may have some wonderful people in your life, but you feel like you’re not good enough for them, and so you feel alone. It messes with your head, drags you down, and it limits your potential.

On March 27th, I wrote:

Some leader I am. I’m just mediocre. I can’t get through anything and here I am wallowing in self-pity.

I was filled with self-doubt, weighed down by everything I had to work on and get done. From school work, to Wiradjuri, to TAFE Work, and even maintaining friendships. I looked at it all as one big giant pile of work that I had barely scratched the surface on, and I felt insufficient. Since then, that big pile of work has gotten taller, but I’m doing fine. I came to my senses, and saw it instead as a collection of much smaller piles, all of which I am working through, bit by bit.

Sometimes its really hard for us to keep in mind how truly amazing every single one of us are. We were born amazing, and we stay that way until the very end. With the right inspiration, we can all do anything.

Another thing we often forget, is how loved we really are. Whether we fully realise it or not, we are surrounded by love. The love of our friends, the love our family, the love of our pets, the love of our God.

Far too often, although we might be surrounded by amazing friends and amazing family, we sometimes feel cut off from that love. We don’t love ourselves and so we feel like no one else could possibly love us, or even like us. The thing is, that most of the time, that love didn’t go anywhere. It’s still there. The only thing that changed, was us.

Those feelings of self-doubt, of not being good enough, they close the doors that let love flow on through. We convince ourselves that we’re not loved, and so we feel that way. And I don’t think there’s anything we can really do to stop those feelings altogether.

But what we can do is remember that love, that past confidence, and realise that we’re not supposed to feel down and worthless. Although we might not feel great at that moment, we have in the past and there’s no reason we can’t feel that way again. We’ve just got to open up those doors, and let the love pour back on in. We just can’t allow those down moments, those moments of self-doubt, to be the defining points of our lives.